the after thought to a shitty day
Posted by Saucy Dame Dizzle on
March 8, 2007
my girlfriends lent shoulders of support
my sister came through with the white zinfindael (to stop them nerves from rattling)
i even took a puff offa someones nasty ass cigarette
my son hugged me and told me he loves me
but
who is here to hold me?
where are those big strong arms of reassurance?
where is the bass?
you know what . . .?
this is a big fat FUCK YOU to alla of my ex-lovers
whom i probably i tried to love in some form or fashion.
when you see me next time (cuz you always do . . . and just can’t wait to chop it up w/ me - verbally)
spare me the reminiscing of how sweet it was to be loved by me
i already know that
you aint my friend either
so stop acting like i’m still the homegirl
if i were, you would be here . . .
bastards
(yeah, i made it a plural)
it’s alright
i’ll feel better in the morning
& surely enough, i’ll go back to thinking less about strong arms, honey suckle kisses and male comfort . . .
once again, it will be more about me and the additional layer of “strong beige women” i’ve just wrapped myself up in.
goodnight
2 Responses to “the after thought to a shitty day”
i so feel you “IP” ( we’re using wu names right?….why is mine violent hunter..grrr!) sometimes our emotions are a downgrade and its hard to be as strong as we are capable of being solo….it’s funny that i was thinking of the less than spectacular young men i’ve had to leave behind…i may be young, but i have no time for fake ones…save all that upgrade nonsense for the others! keep your head up mama!!
By t.r.b on Mar 16, 2007
Wow I have been here a time a or two myself…this week I feel like this. Kind of….PMSing ya know?
By Tiarah Milton on Jul 26, 2007